January 07, 2007 11:40:19am
Re: i am
phew. that felt all too real, but then again, i guess it was :)
here's a recollection:
first dose, pretty small. at 9:50 I begin to see small differences in my cognition.. words on the computer screen, and other normally inanimate objects seemingly become.. well. -semi- animate. not much at all. now mind you, in SF, at my hostel, i had a previous experience, but I was unsure if it was the sprouts of doom, or the dose. All i know is that it was not nearly anything like i was about to experience.
at 10:50 i dose 2 more big ones this time. I start to get hungry as the wolf, and knowing that lsd causes an appreciation of food and increased, i slyly walk to the frigerator, an get my food. a bacon cheeseburger, and some curly fries, and a root beer. I'm eating it, and it's heaven. Just literally stuffing the crap into my mouth and down my throat. keep in mind, i'm a super introverted person, learning only recently, how to, and the perks of being extroverted. I still prefer to be in solitude most of the time. it's where i do my thinking. So, to be honest, I am alone during this trip, which intensifies it, and now I know better. something could have gone real wrong.
anyhoo, at 11:50 I make this post to the archive. At that point, i still have the basic motor functions to browse the net, and type, relatively.
Well some time flies by... lets say its... 1:00.
My rooms colours now are inverted or something.. and at one point, i look at something, somewhere, and it has weird language/words, and now my vision is gracefully tainted with it. the words are covering everything I can see..
My room colour is morphing slowly.. and it is white.. and like.. a very different colour red, that i've never seen before. It is becoming nearly impossible to read.. everything is beginning to look like russian.
maybe around... 2:00, I am swaying the room, and talking to myself. Saying some of the weirdest shit iv said in my life. just far, far out things. I have been trying to find my digital camera, to record my thoughts and actions. I cannot find it anywhere...
It starts to get impossible! the words are flying around the room, and now my room has turned completely white!
I am now seeing in acid vision. I try to look beyond it, and see reality, but I can't. I begin to touch and feel things, but I cannot.
I start to lick things to see if i can even taste.
My room is flying, and i'm talking to an xbox (game system) thinking that it is at least recording what i am saying.(speaking of which, i need to give the damn thing to my brother and sis. christmas present.. bought it from a friend for $300.. plays 7 different game systems (including all the oldies like atari, SNES, and super nintendo, and then it plays DVDs, and can actually copy a store rented xbox game to it's HD, so when you return the game, you still have it. it's an 80 gig computer, in essence. anyhoo)
So I'm talking to it, and i start believing that for a long portion of my life, i've been experiencing nothing but a dream world, which i find later to be untrue. I start to think that..
i'm in an lsd world, and it doesn't even matter what I do... and that i need to pass this level, or stage, so i can get out...
nothing is working.. and infact, I can hardly see, because i think/feel that there is still a false vision pulled over my eyes at this time..
!! I am totally not touching on some real deep parts of this experience that I wish I could. Oh well :) Guess that's why its left up to the individual usually anyway
Throughout this time, I really start to think i've entered a world, that I need to get out of somehow.
I experiment with the reality/state im in.. i push a bit on my adam's apple. i pinch my cheek...
odd, it really doesn't feel(!)
I'm starting to freak out, because Im thinking that THIS is my reality.
at about 3:15 I lay down in bed... after TONS of thoughts..
I manage to get myself to believe i need to lie in bed and stay still, as opposed to moving.
around there, i'm having weird feelings about time and space, and thinking that i shouldn't be tripping much longer, but that it seems like it isn't stopping.
In bed i am coming back, and i don't even know it..
maybe 3:20 hits.. and i look, and my room is back. In a flash, everything came back, and i didn't even know it.
I went online, posted here, and talked to some of my friends, in which i had a REALLY weird experience. During my trip, I thought i entered like. an alternate reality, (guess i did :D) and like.. it was like the matrix. you know -- when they enter the matrix, and do the kung fu and shit? I felt like I could do anything, like it was my whole world to me (or at least my room).
Anyhoo, that was weird. For any one of you people, you might have aged, but there isn't a reason (other than the havoc it can put on you the next day! man) to not trip out every blue moon. I guess sometimes you just need to drain your battery :D
looking back, i just have to say, my room hasn't ever changed colours before, let alone start to overlap with not only images, but ideas and thoughts, culminating into a...